Crazyfuck

I have been away for a while for three main reasons

1. Work
2. Planning a move and all around craziness
3. Hard drive crash.

I should have more soon, other than that, I don't have much to report.

I would like also, to say thank you to all those who keep an eye out and keep coming around to check out my stuff, despite my long absences. It really means a lot. Thank you.

This is not really a poem. Very little of it rhymes and it has no syllabic structure, but it was just a free write of what I was feeling at the time, so here it is. Maybe I can take a part or two and make it part of something more formed, idk.


I have no life down here
Nothing to do but destroy myself
And fool myself into making me think I enjoy it
I know what this is
It's to give me the drive I need to make this end
But I cant seem to keep the frustration and despair on my mind

I have no life here
I have no escape
I have no place here
In this mess I've made

The sweat stings my eyes
From vented frustrations
Maybe I should keep it all inside
Rev up the engine, and drive my way out of here
If I cant go soon, I'll die before another year
But its too much for everybody else

I will be posting pictures from my vampire photo shoot. This shoot is from about 2 to 2 1/2 years ago. My first, and not the best camera/lighting, so I apologize for the graininess, I'll do what I can on photoshop with some and post the new ones over time. The beautiful model is my friend Kat, and she is the ONLY ONE with permission to take these and use/post them anywhere.

here I am about a week and a half from enlisting in the army... I won't be on here for a while once I enter basic, but that should be about February. I am going to pick something that will keep me from having to fight, so I won't have that to worry about. Other than that, got some new poetry coming, I'll be posting one later today in fact. My writing style has become a bit more cryptic lately... hope everyone enjoys it. Well, thats about it... Later.

Update 2/15/2009

Well, a lot has changed in a short amount of time, and now this is a distant thing if ever. I have no idea what's going to happen in the next few months, but I guess I'll know eventually.

I will begin posting today, sorry it's taken so long but I will have two up tonight FOR SURE. One will be an old one that I may have had on here a long time ago, "Dance Darkling Faeries". It was written about 3 years ago. I also have a new one that is a work in progress, and that should be the second one, but if not there will be another one from my vault. So that's all I have to say at the moment. Later.